There is power in failing to stay on beat with 40 other dancers, or turning in the wrong direction, only to face those 40 other dancers head on.
There is also power in being able to laugh with yourself and others at your own failure. I’ll creep on your vacation pictures and like every single one of them.
I’m going to have a movie night for one and I’m going to bloody love my own company.
I love seeing people genuinely happy in an environment they are experiencing for the first time — it was something that I never did. Nearly a month after the trip, I looked back at those pictures—I look like an idiot, but a happy idiot. In the millisecond it took to capture those moments, I never felt stupid or childish or “uncool.” Actually, I felt pretty cool.
I allowed my potential for great vacation photographs get overrun by the fear of seeming childish or “uncool” in my pre-teen years. It’s not childish or stupid to be happy, and it is definitely not “uncool” to be yourself.
I stated the things that I liked most about me — my loyalty, my ability to empathize and sympathize with others, my creative brain, my poetic voice, my passion for justice.
At this stage in the first date, I was definitely attracted to myself — I definitely wanted a second date, and without hesitation, I accepted the offer.
When a bank holiday was looming, or even just an empty weekend, I would make as many plans as possible.
Brunches and lunches with drinks wedged in between.
I ordered my turkey and cheddar on wheat and sat at a table made for two, but quaint for one.
I filled my large soft drink cup to the rim with Diet Coke.
When I’m dating someone, they’re all I think about. I think about cute and thoughtful things I can do to make them smile and I just generally want to make them happy all the time. I’m bored of the tedious dating app admin that never results in decent chat or even a date.
Well, let’s look at what I’m like when I date someone else. I’m going to date myself for a bit because I’m bored of dating other people. I’m bored of the mind games from the people who get under your skin. I’m going to think about what I do when I’m dating someone, like I said above and do that, but for me. Instead of wasting my energy thinking about someone who doesn’t deserve it.
I would see it, I would smell it, and I would hate it.